Ink and Page

The central figure of the story of my heart for so long, the hero, the savior, now becomes the antichrist from the nightmarish pages of heartbreak. the only book i know, the scent of its woolen pages reminds me of the pain you suffered me through

such hardships not felt in ages of all things and not familiar to many other than the damned

im curious to know your feelings on this subject

in all odds, its most likely swayed and distorted by chemical views and half-hearted sentiment.

your fuzz and filth and desires disgust even the lowest creatures of darkness and shame

youve fooled even yourself

no one can save you but you

not your false profits or your false friends, only there to aid in the destruction of your beauty,your innocence, your life and love, but you, and you alone

alone...

how i am
how you made me
how you left me
you created this
you planted the seeds for this disaster
now reap it
now live it
now die by it


you did this.

alone.

all alone.

as well all are... in all respects


is this the end?

only time will tell, and it speaks in tongues my friend... if i can even call you that

the future is now, and it is existence
or is it...?
is anything...?




asking the questions no one will, or can, answer,

<3

It's Kinda Funny How Shit Works Out

Ill have more to say of this matter later, i just find it hard to believe that someone can be so warm and comforting and yet so cold and deceiving.

all ive done is try, my efforts have gone unnoticed and the fruits of my labors are rotten and bitter

im always the bad guy, always with villain, its always my fault and the blame is firmly placed upon my shoulders

i dont understand this at all, this is the very definition of shame

such wasted opportunities and such lies


god dammit....hah, yeah right....



waiting to see where this road takes him,

<3

Never Ending

The love of my life?
more like the love of my lies
you destroyed what was left of my broken heart with no remorse for youre actions
in a hysterical rage, i despise you and the blood that flows trough your veins
like the river that once grew our love from seed and soil to the tree of life that is now exists as today
i will burn this tree
chop it down
completely and utterly demolish any trace of it until the memory descends into a dark depth and abyss when only the foulest of creatures reside

these are only temporary grievances, as my love is still true, the same cannot be truthfully said for you from my position in these actions and betrayals.

how many hearts will you break before your rampage of destruction is completed?

i was blindsided

do i deserve this?
i suppose so...


you are no better than me
a broken heart is a broken heart, no matter what form it arrives in.

you act as if you are in the right commencing in such pain.

dont try and prove yourself to me

this is just part of the cycle

life


repeat, repeat, repeat

never ending


what does our future hold?


we will see...




dont blame yourself,

<3

Broken Homes

Im a story teller, a story sheller
carving out the details and inserting my own
keeping the framework of this hardly built home
loneliness consumes it and creates an acquaintance house
nothing more, nothing less
just surface encounters and nothing to expect
but hardship and pain
ill say it again
expect nothing, no gain
the rain, the flood, it swells above us all
tall, oceans wide, oceans deep
it rises until the fall, where the autumn oranges take us down
along with the tides
back to our infancy, back to the days of true peace and love
above all else, it was a home
now its just a shell of a former self
what was once one is now broken
pieces scattered, dreams are shattered, like glass in the storm
nothing escapes without growth, nothing it left alone
until were molded by the cold world around us
all becoming one again
yet without names, we are numbers,
and remain so until death
sweet, releasing death

<3

No Facts

Judging without all the facts
an act i witnessed today
youre one to talk
shut your mouth
know before you speak
learn
im so sick of you running it
slow down
or stop altogether
stop the hypocrisy
stop the pain
stop the hurt
stop everything
we are all nothing
becoming even less


dealing with all the shit of todays modern world,

<3

The Nice Gentalmen

An extremely nice man offered to purchase me a fluid drink the other evening at work, it was a wonderfully kind gesture, but one i declined for whatever reason i had at the time, it has since fallen out of favor with my memory and i cannot recall. he insisted but i told him as much as i appreciated the offer, i could not accept it.

nice and kind people such as the aforementioned gentlemen are hard to come by, and so i had to write about it here because out of my 1 and almost 1 half years of employment with this company, this was the first time i had ever experienced such an act of kindness.

there are genuinely good people left, you just have to wait.


surprised yet accepting,

<3

Lost In a Sea of Emotion

decide, dont hide, your feelings
revealing them
not concealing them
thats the action needed

conceded? no
depleted? yes
emotionless conversations and sometimes even less

i cant even organize my thoughts into a poem

just tell me what you have to say
what youre feeling
what youve got on your mind
dont lie, dont drag this out
if youre going to say it, say it
dont destroy me
dont lead me on

this is love were talking about

im too confused
what to do?

i havent a clue

destruction of my heart and soul
thats what youll put me through

end this now
or tell me whats what


free falling in love...


or for you, is it out? or deeper yet?

stop the lies, stop the dodge

be honest

now.



waiting for the boom,

<3