Stagnent Minds

Damned be these viral consequences, a whores mouth more welcoming than this sudden lack of respect, for I cannot bare the weight of such actions when the fault is not of my own accord. I merely scoff and shrug off the issue, how can such thoroughly tongued words and heartfelt sentiments be attributed to childish behavior on my part, I wasn’t aware you grew out of discussion and compassion.

Is it simply fashionable to disguise yourself in the body of those whom you so richly despise or are you so uncertain in your stance that youll stumble and fall flat upon your empty head when introduced to the slightest bit of confliction, so you hide behind a false face and never make a shift, even in the slightest.

Such a closed mind could never realize failure and certainly would not admit such a mistake. Shame does not cover the contempt I have for the willingly ignorant, breeding slaves to your fairytales and blinded views. I cannot stand by idly while impressionable minds are made to rot in stagnant non-thought. Slowly slipping into the conformity of wasted youth and wasted minds.

I digress from the point at hand, which is simple and sorrowful. I have no understanding of this new form of abrasion, so passive aggressive I nearly mistook it for hatred. This however is merely defensive and will hopefully fade as health is regained. If this does not occur within a relatively quick pattern, I will be forced to retaliate, unfortunately, with the might of a mind soaked in freedom and the power to use it.

These days in which we are alive and aware need to be days of progress and of love. I see nothing but the brightest of futures and endless potential for our beating, bleeding hearts, but only if we strive toward those stars and we allow these old bones, which are our foundation, to grow and strengthen.

You must relinquish your anger and remove all senses of arrogance in order for these ideas to become realities. I exclaim this, not only to those of my own personal life, but to all those listening around the world. We have everything we need to become what weve always thought we were, all we must do now is act, and quickly. We are what we let ourselves become.


I ramble, but I mean well,
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The Beginning of Something Truly Beautiful

Such a bright light cuts through my darkness like a blade through the flesh and vein of my wrist, though this temptress has no hidden blackness, no bleeding aftermath, only holding the beauty and the heart for which I had nearly given up the hope for finding inside. My hands trembled, my legs quivered, and my eyes lost all sense of respect and control as my love entered sight, clothed in the finest of cloths, wrapped in the softest of silks, dawning such a shimmering, golden crown, fit only for the purest of souls. Her reach extended to my fallen body, writhing in the filth id become accustom to calling home, to attempt to raise me from beneath the brimstone which I had so willingly buried myself under alive.

In that moment, as the dirt and dead flesh was being brushed from my person, I had found a peace. Such a monumental peace, unobtainable from singularity, no matter the effort placed into such endeavors. While I had been content within myself, somehow, whether subconsciously or not, I was striving for more, and when my final ounce of hope was nearing depletion, and there was nothing but a black infinity surrounding, a small glimpse and then a supermassive explosion of potential and elegant maturity invaded my near reckless mind and I knew the incredible opportunity and passion with which I had been presented, I would not let it slip through my skeleton fingers once again, no.

Now, as I rest in the garden of such health and happiness I had only dreamt of sharing with another, I realize that, while I denounce such ideas as luck and fate, there is something here which I cannot, even on my most brilliant of days, word and explanation for. As time lengthens, my smiles grow wider and if they are to continue such movements, my lips will bridge the modern world, and you could cross the atlantic and the pacific on my straightened teeth. And we shall, through time, journey round this blue planet, hand in hand, heart in heart, mind in mind, together. My future is brighter than ever and my optical orbs are adjusting to the beauty of such a gift. Never have I felt more at home than within these walls paradise.






No words will suffice,
<3 <------ (more now than ever)

A Bright Beginning

Here i lie, in the unmistakeable darkness, a personal custom I've become accustom to. how slowly does time travel here? hours, days, weeks, months...years...how much time has passed? no sign of light has ever shown its soft face, not truly for that matter...a solid, damp prison built from the brittle bones of my past mistakes, somehow inescapable in my mind, I've come to terms with my new home. a false happiness brought me here. scatterbrained is this former so-called life...

when suddenly...

a ray, one single ray of the brightest go lights slices through the black as though it was nonexistent. the intensity too bright for my now nocturnal eyes. "a fantasy" i proclaim, for there is no such luck to bring me this gift. my optical orbs adjust to the new sight, the most beautiful vision i could ever dream of in even the deepest of slumbers.

just as sudden as the first ray appears, it is joined by another razor sharp blade of light. and then another burst of warmth, and then another, and then it become apparent. i accept the new fate with open arms and a smile as wide as an ocean, for i know what is approaching, and i will not deny it, i cannot deny it...


a new journey has begun.




good things come to those who wait,
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From The Narrows To The Worldly, I Must Travel All Roads

I'm under a cardiac arrest, tight gripping pain stretches my chest,
lest they forget to molest and taint my dusty memories
i try to speak but only dead skin emerges sooner
a thick gasp for air, i choke, that lump in my throat, puss gush, revolting tumor
my foe speeding rumors, such rumors lead to guilt
in their minds or mine? where must we draw that line
show me where the fun in losing oxygen lies, i wait in this dirt, knelt
in the meanest of times, i shall sever the slave from the master
my heart, an unruly old bastard, war torn and wreck from emotionless sex
simply pick up pace, or denounce this very race? surly you must jest
burly so called men call me an enemy yet again
is it for the emotions i spill or my appearance to them?
its of no concern to me, as countless years of their hell has numbed me, no brimstone flame can burn now, such retched sows
god damn, they used to be oh so deadly...
a resurgence?

more broadly, in broad view, i see society crumbling before you
before me, before we, can do a damned thing to stop the fall
would we even bother, or merely stare, mouth agape, in awe?
not agape as in whores terms, no the words are far much too warm
such a sexual storm of vigor and fear, what lead you here but false dreams and dead deities?
i musent let these thoughts sear my throbbing flesh as past ideas had reached to be those flames

do i move on and merely worry for my own good, or take the hellish road again, but this time for the people of the world?

right, wrong, good, bad, mean, happy, loving, sad, life, death, pain, sex, meaning, answers, existence...

what do these mean to you?
i must find what these mean to me...



who will accompany me on this life long journey?,
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I Question My Past Reasoning

i was a sucker for the synergy, yet you loved me so minimally
though times have changed, our love deranged and managed to bring me doubt
was it merely that i craved towards what i could not keep,
or was it truly something more? i abhor every spec and scrap of this speculation
the degradation, the humiliation, i pay forward my pride of the heart to the lovers nation
i sifted through my thoughts thoroughly, preferably in my off time and when I'm not clouded by fear.



19 years. this is where I'm at.,
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Broken Thoughts

as i walk along the evergreen path
i drip with scent from my kerosene bath
the plants rush by and i think at long last
from the womb to the dirt, how life does move oh so fast

the weight of the world i do not cary
as i keep it settled beneath my feet, wary
a constant force, the rock, the sea, the hurt
some days shine as the sun, the darkness serving to make it worse

never a constant dry eye, as oceans leak and are cried
when you sever your heart and your mind, those are the best of lies

some say life can find a way, though the path is well hidden
most happiness, through ignorance, is strictly forbidden

blackness is clouding my judgement this day
an eternal price i have no choice but to pay...

or can i overcome?

yes.




do these words mean anything? are they structured to please?,
hm,

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